I like it when men are vocal

I’ll preface this by saying I take an antidepressant, so finishing is really hard for me. I gave up on sex almost two years ago to let myself mature, make better decisions, and recover from a really unpleasant long-term relationship that has left me wary of men. Tbh, no man has ever made me finish, but it’s not really their fault. Hook ups just don’t do it for me, and I know what I like can be achieved with a vibrator, no men involved. Sort of. The bit is that when I finish, it’s always to the thought of a man. Not one in particular, but just the way the behave during sex. I’m on the smaller side and really light weight, so I’m really easy to toss around. I love to be manhandled, to be told what to do and to be forced to follow instructions. I love the idea of someone finishing inside me, and even more than that I love the idea of giving blow jobs and being in a threesome with two men. Something about the pain of being stretched like that, of being finished on/in just does it for me. Most of all, I like the noises men make. I love when they moan and whimper. I love it when they say encouraging things in a slightly condescending tone. I love being talked to and through sex. I actually finished writing this. The truth is that the idea of men will always be better than an actual man for me. I’m a difficult person and my standards are overly high. I have no intentions of stopping my celibacy streak. I just wanted to share! Thanks for reading!