My mom just wants my kids

I am about to go to joint therapy with my narcissistic mother after months of not talking to her and not allowing her to see my children. Long story short, she habitually broke simple and serious boundaries and I’m no longer allowing tolerating it.

So the therapist asked what my “goal” for therapy was and honestly, this is just exploratory to see if I even want to proceed with having a relationship with my mom. I am very close to just being done with her disrespect and emotional manipulation that I have endured for YEARS. I tried telling her she hurt me and her response was to double down and continue to hurt me, instead of taking any accountability. I have very little faith that we can be fixed. I’ve been in a therapy environment with her before and it was just torture.

Well the therapist mentioned my mother’s therapy goal to me in our 1 on 1 session. She apparently just, “wants to have a relationship with the grandkids.”

I’m just gobsmacked. I am surprised but also not surprised… No goal to try to fix things with her own daughter. I was the one who initiated therapy in the first place, I guess I wanted to try to fix things at some point?? But to hear that my mother is only interested in moving things along just so she can access to my kids again is just... It hurts, and it makes me so angry. And it makes me want to just cancel the joint session. Close the book, we’re done here. If thats your intention, then why fucking bother?