Day 2

Well she is one of my closest friends and well since we are in the same friend group it will definitely get a lot awkward. I gave her a letter Explaining all the moments I liked her and why I fell for her Before reading it She told me that don't expect anything And I get it I knew she didn't like me But I was trapped in a cycle The week began thinking that she didn't like me at all And slowly through the weeks i would just gather the least bit of attention thinking naaa Maybe she does and is just shy By the end of the week I would beike fuck it I should just say it and not be trapped and I would imagine the whole weekend how i would do it And then at the end Naaa she doesn't and the cycle repeats.

So well I had to And i did I thought she would be like your friendship matters and please dont be awkward Fuck some silly part of me thought she would write me a letter back saying all she feels about me Probably not much But it would be nice But well Today I saw her in class Super awkward Next we were all standing outside just between classs And she was talking to other friends like nothing happened The same energy the same laugh that I feel for. There she was unaffected I felt sad A lot

I don't know something like I don't like you but I care about you as a friend would be nice to hear But ig she doesn't even think about me like that. Anyways it made me sad but ig it'll go away I hope it does.

I just hope that maybe I can look at her without feeling anything

Some part of me is like yeah she should regret rejecting me and be sad that I am not around her and miss me atleast and then I can show her how awesome I am and what she missed. But it won't happen She is a beautiful girl and he personlity is attractive Girls like her get a lot of attention and so well she won't notice me gone.

I just feel sad for myself for being so pathetic.