My avoidant bf just blocked me everywhere

I 25(f) in a relationship with 25(m) for four years now. During our four year relationships, we had big arguments but this one i think is the most emotional argument we had.

Just for context, we've been living ldr for four months now, and all we do is text each other and play online games together. During our first year, we've uncovered each other's deal breakers. He told me that he doesnt wanna get cussed at. Because he remembers. Like it's gonna hurt him bad.

Awhile ago, he cussed at me and calling me names and I was triggered. It's been a long time since I have been adjusting my emotions for him not to shut down but I felt so good when I crashed out to him. I called him names, I called him out, I cussed at him. It was full of hate.This is all the suppressed anger for over the years that I'm trying to hold in.

I mean, he started it. I just reacted. But he was the one who has the audacity to block me everywhere. I didn't reach out. I don't wanna chase. But it starts to sink in to me. Im trying to accept that this is a break up. All those years that we shared, gone in just an emotional argument he cant face.

Guess im just gonna cry it out until there's nothing left. Good luck to me.