The religion that can suit me

This post is finding anyone that can help me with this question

I have been exploring religion for a long time and I haven’t found one Atleast I can just start believing in one I’ve never been a fan of a god it seems kind of toxic to me sorry if that makes people mad. I feel like just naming things out like I want this religion to be specific rules and I want what I want but that just seems to good to be true. I want to be a atheist I don’t want to worship I just feel like I’m whole even without anyone to look up to I think there are religions that believe world ending events but will I ever try one out probably not. I know there is a creator but there can also be not if some supernatural entity came up to me and told me worship him I will probably I just feel like I want something genuine something pure I don’t know what I want.