Why is it hard to be a gay indian?

as a gay indian iv always wanted a relationship, i dont have strict parents and they would accept me even if i came out, totally not the point rn but iv always had these online talking stages and one thing i noticed is that as an indian with light brown skin its some how a problem?

like i get that americans european even latinos they are good lookin but for some reason iv gotten people with other ethnicities thinking they are better than me i mean it makes me REALLY insecure cuz like they judge me based on looks

i live in the middle east and the attention i get is from older bangladeshi people who are so horny(not that bangladeshi bad) im speaking about the weird ones who just talk to me for sex..

iv given up finding people in the middle east and its better living life as a normal teen rather than finding an older man who just wants to have fun

has any other ethnicity liked an indian before? im wondering cuz i feel like being indian is stopping me from being with a man i want to like it hurts...