advice on if i should walk my college graduation early

hi all im debating walking a year early for my college graduation and kind of wanted to hear other ppls thoughts.

For context: my mom was diagnosed about 2 years ago and one of her main things has been she rly wants to still be here to at least see one more milestone of my brother and i graduating college.

My brothers a year older than me so he will be graduating this upcoming spring however i’m not actually graduating until next spring. I have the option to walk this spring but as the deadline approaches to declare if u want to walk for spring 2026 grad I am debating whether I should or wait for next spring. Funny enough we both go to the same college so it would be convenient, but a part of me is worried i’ll hurt my mom’s feelings and that she might interpret it that I don’t believe she will make it another year. this is one of those things that’s hard to talk ab w her bc my moms the kind to insist that i wait until next year bc “everything will be ok and she’s fine, don’t worry, it’s up to me if i want to”

In terms of her progression she’s been but recently began to have respiratory weakness (weak cough, voice changing). but she’s not near the end stages yet and i am hopeful my mom will make it to next spring to see me graduate but ik theres a possibility of that not happening. and I believe once u walk u can’t walk again per university policy and that it would be unfortunate to walk this spring if we r lucky to still have her around for longer.

although my mom’s not vain she currently still looks overall like herself (besides needing a wheelchair) but she still has full control of her face and can smile. shes admitted to me a few times that she gets sad sometimes with how her apperance has change re the muscle loss in general and j her reaction to seeing pics/videos from a year ago. with how quickly changes happen with als ’m worried that a year from now it could make her sad to remember my brothers graduation and make my graduation a reminder of it. ik that all that she rly cares ab and that matters is her being there but ig im getting into so many hypotheticals now and considering everything possible bc i want my mom to have a good memory of my graduation besides the seeing ur daughter graduate part. but ugh i hate how ALS makes milestones, birthdays, holidays not fun anymore but so much pressure that “this could be the last one”it’s annoying.

but also ill admit i have selfish interest of not wanting to share a college graduation with my brother. i want him to have his day but i also want to have my own j like it has always been bc we have always had back to back grads. but thats like the least important thing. im also aware that i wouldn’t get to do graduation with my friends since we are juniors atm and having to do another year of school and doing the whole ceremony wouldn’t be as exciting or how i had imagined bc i ltrly have another year of school to do.

also i don’t know if it would have the same impact bc my mom would obviously know that i still wouldn’t have a degree until next year so now idk if im just being performative and im actually doing this for j myself wow idk im more confused after writing this out.

I guess its more of do u guys think i should take the gamble of waiting until my normal year or walk this spring when i know my mom is somewhat stable with this disease thats so unpredictable….? Or like anything else I should consider?