How can I lower my money goal without feeling like a loser?

Hi everyone!

I'll try to summarize my story, even though it's quite long. So I graduated in July 2022. Unfortunately, due to serious health issues, I didn't take up employment. I don't want to go into detail here, but it was Bartonella, Lyme disease, and so on. Dozens of neurological symptoms, full body aches (just constant physical pain), severe fatigue, psychological symptoms and so much more. It was just hell. I was just trying to survive each day. I am grateful to my family for their help, because I wouldn't have been able to handle it on my own.

Every day I feel better and better. I'm recovering. I know I'll be completely healthy soon. That's why I decided to manifest that I was earning some money. But I think I overstated the amount. I'm based in Poland. The minimum wage here is 4666 PLN (1268$) a month before tax. But in bigger cities (such as Warsaw), it's common to get 6-8K PLN, even when you're just starting (obviously people in the well-paid sectors such as finance, IT etc. get much more that that).

So I decided to manifest, that I earn 10K PLN. There were times when I didn't question it at all. It was obvious to me. But then came moments of crisis. Thoughts surfaced: "But how can this be? Who's going to pay you that much? Four years without a job after graduation? Forget it. It's unrealistic". So I thought I might need to lower this affirmation. At least that's what logic tells me. Even though my heart tells me I shouldn't. I know I might be focusing too much on 3D, but I'm curious what you would do if you were in my shoes?

Why did I choose this particular amount? It's simply how much I wanted to earn to start with. I also wanted to thank my family for their help. I saw so many people achieve great success in different areas, so I thought I could do it too. But maybe it's true that affirming such earnings in my situation is simply unrealistic. At least I couldn't find such stories. I wanted to lower this amount, but I'm afraid that this will only lead to more doubts and ultimately nothing will manifest.

Many friends have always told me (and still do) that I have enormous potential, that I speak foreign languages ​​(English, German, a little French), that I'm composed, patient, etc., etc. Perhaps they see something in me that I don't. They're surprised when I say I feel a great sense of shame about all this. They keep telling me I shouldn't blame myself for being sick. And that I should be very proud of myself for surviving all this and wanting to achieve something.

Again, has anyone lowered their affirmation goal? How did you "justify" it? Thanks! :)