maladaptive daydreaming is one of the only reasons i live but it’s impairing my life

i developed this habit 6 years ago, feeling extremely depressed, alone, ugly, etc. i’ve created an elaborate storyline within my head consisting of everything I want in this life but cannot get. My appearance and behaviour is what I want, my friends are what I want, how people react to me and know me are what I want, everything is perfect and dear to me in this daydream. it’s the one of the only and even major reasons i still live. i always tell myself i can simply do my obligations in the real world and nothing extra, so I can simply go back to my daydream earlier. it’s just so important to me, i need this alternate reality. but this habit is making things so difficult, and has been for a long time. i don’t daydream in my control anymore, i daydream out of my control. like i don’t realise im daydreaming and just slip into it whenever im doing any task. it comes as natural as breathing at this point. it’s impairing because i waste so much time and suddenly half my day is gone having done nothing because my daydream got the better of me. i don’t know how to stop but i don’t even know if i want to, idk how to cope without this.