I feel like life has broke me

At 18 I sought help that help ended up being benzos and (adult grooming) my whole adult life has been a lie. Poly pharmacied by the same person who groomed annd gave me therapy and psychs tell me now I didn’t need any of it.

I lost everyone around me. I am wounded, broken, my career had promise - derailed.

im 28 turning 29 soon and in this time I’ve suffered too much.

every pain I had at 18 still there it’s just more pain now. I won’t give up but wow I am literally slowly walking to and from the bathroom to my bed, everything is heavy, I look at everyone who achieved and why did I get help which ultimately harmed me and will affect me for the rest of my life.

My hope is extremely low today I’m tired of everything.