idk what to do

I just dont know what to do. i want to write about my situation but im hyper-verbal so it comes out too long. i tried summarising using a certain tool but if i mention it the mods dont let my post through. if i do write a long post, nobody reads it. i have noone in my life for any support. no family, my friends all have their own partners or family to focus on. i just want to express to someone who's gonna understand and not give advice and problem solve and tell me to move on from the person who blocked me. i feel this group is the place but idk what to do cos what i wrote came out so long that it wont post and i dont think anyone will actually read it. someone privately in a DM said i could talk to them but, i wrote for them and no reply, so i assume either they're ghosting cos its overwhelming, or its just alot to read which i understand. i just dunno what to do. i just want to express and have someone to talk with about this. idk what to do.

im a horrible person i feel, cos the only person who is kind enough to be here for me is recovering from a spinal operation, and im still leaning on her cos i have noone else. but if eel so bad. i dont want to lean on her when she's struggling. i just dont have anyone else and idk what to do.