I’m lost and scared.

I’m literally losing my mind everyday. I’m 26 and last year I was admitted to the psych ward for a mental breakdown. Ever since then I have lost everything and need to build my life up again. I lost everything my job, friends, lovers, money etc and everything. Ever since last May I’ve been in the house with barely any social interaction. My family doesn’t care for mental health so they treat me weird and leave be alone all the time. I feel like my brain altered after the psych stay. I have no motivation for anything, I gained weight and lost my beauty,and I just lay at home all day. I’ve been applying to jobs but keep getting rejected. I have two degrees and that’s clearly useless. I feel like I’m going to be stuck in this loop of misery and depression. I used to be so lively, bubbly, happy, pretty, and just care freee now I’m a slob who jut rots all day. I feel like I’m paralyzed even though I want to do so many things. I’m so scared.