need guidance and support ❤️‍🩹

i’m stuck in a loop. i have a night out on a bender that usually leaves me feeling awful and then i stop drinking and going out for a period of time, then i think i’m fine and can handle “a few drinks” and i’m back to square one.

i’ve struggled with binge drinking, once i start i simply can’t limit it to a few drinks and i can’t stop.

i come from a long line of alcoholics in my family.

i also was diagnosed with adhd and have been prescribed adderall and when i drink on my medication its the worst.

i’m feeling extremely depressed, shameful, embarrassed, lost and i hate myself.

i want to stop, for good this time. but i’m not sure how to make sobriety stick with me.

i’ve been thinking about going to a meeting this week, but i don’t love the religious affiliation with AA tbh.

please send me any recommendations for someone in their first few days of sobriety who is struggling with what to do.