I have no friends

I don't know if this is with me or if this is with others. Tbh I read lots and lots of people skills, leadership,motivation and bunch of hell like stuff to be better with dealing with people. As soon as I go out with my friends, acquaintances, or anyone.(Not with a date, I have never been on any date after I dated my ex for the first time and fell in love, now it feels like I am no more going to move forward with my love life as I am stuck there) Sorry to divert the topic

But yeah, whenever I go out with someone all I see is emptiness. I try hard sometimes and sometimes I am really good with ppl, but still I don't know why they want to be with me.

I feel like crying or leaving everything off and go start a new life in Italy country side one day. Anyways all I want to know is why people won't be friends with me. All I want is to laugh together and make some moments. This hurts really bad when you spend time with someone all day but when you are back to your home and feel alone.

Do they have their own priorities or options? Or what. If you have done this to someone let me know nobody's gonna say anything. If you feel like let me know I am here. Cool Bye