I’m deeply annoyed with people judging me for doing the same thing that they are doing

I just need to get this off my chest

when someone judges me for doing the same shit that they do… and moreover, when they started doing what I am doing because they want to be like me. No sense of self. They strictly live off the validation they can syphon from any idiot that hasn’t seen through their bullshit yet. They think that repeating my fuck ups will yield them the same results. Jokes on them.

They missed the rock bottom suffering and clawing my way back out to even get to THIS point let alone all the bs otherwise. Any observed benefit I have ever gotten from any of my life’s fuck ups has been deeply earned because I chose that path instead of pretend I am someone else or perfect or what the fuck ever. The universe does not reward riding someone’s coattails. I guess you missed that lesson.

A lot of people in my life are similar to this. They either try to do what I’m doing which is NOT at all (in and of itself) ideal or beneficial so it’s a weird choice OR they judge so harshly and rally their sheeple hate troops to join in so they somehow ironically end themselves up IN MY SAME SHITTY POSITION (of being addicted to every fucking thing) by genuine suffering bc they hate themselves that much that they inevitably fall down the addiction rabbit hole to finally feel better. Been there… fell down the rabbit hole many times… actually spent years and years so far learning my own unique path out of each addiction rabbit hole as it related to my own way of healing and growing and dedication to a better future and world.

Am I the only one who learned that when you are gonna fuck up in life at least make it into something that makes it all worth it… lean into it…. learn a lil something… hell idk, help others in the same position? Or by all means… sit there and completely deny your own reality instead and play pretend. I genuinely can’t relate to that level of a distorted reality. Not I, bitch. I know exactly how I’m fucking my life up thank you lol I plan my fuck ups ahead of time, if I predict I will be falling ill to them regardless. I maximize their return, though. I dive straight down into their depths and come up to the surface just to share my experience before diving down again. I’ll turn a fuck up into a whole income.

Meanwhile, you are hiding with the shadow ppl in the bushes pretending you don’t fucking ruin everyone’s day if they get within walking distance… I’ve got some advice: no one is gonna throw you away for being an addict if they are worth a damn at all AND if you aren’t a piece of shit addict because you are a piece of shit person already, anyways.

But I stg everyone already threw you away years ago when you showed how morally corrupt and selfish you are. Your ego is ten sizes too big and you don’t have any heart to balance it out. you bounce around and steal the personality traits of women you claim to hate and make yourself feel better by telling them they suck. All along you wanna be them so bad you can’t stand it. You are WEIRD FOR THAT AND ID THROW YOU AWAY RIGHT NOW IF YOU WEREN’T ALREADY IN THE TRASH.

Amen.

Ok I had to vent for just a second. Judgy ppl get right under my skin 🫠 lame ass life havin ass scared of opinions ass fighting thin air bc I’m not fighting someone who wants to be just like me ass maybe you are in love with me dumb ass. You wouldn’t tell a soul if you were though from fear of judgment scary ass BITCH

Shew I will not give a damn ever again. This is to all the ppl too scared to actually get out and fuck your life off like the rest of us. You are my exact demographic… I guess you can live your life through watching me. Boring ass bitch.

AMEN.