Sometimes I wonder if something is wrong with me.

I’m almost 32 and everyone my age around me is starting to get married or have children.

I don’t think I want to get married. I’m not scared of commitment but it’s an expensive endeavour that I don’t feel is necessary. I’ve been with my partner for 4 years and we have a house together. There’s a lot of love there and he knows how I feel and is fine about it.

I know I don’t want children. I have an autoimmune condition so spend a lot of time feeling tired, and I work a busy job that I love as well as having a side hustle, which take up a lot of my energy without having kids to tend to on top. I do wonder if there is something wrong with me that I’ve never felt the biological pull to have children…

My best friend has a four month old. She never wanted to have children but got pregnant and decided to go with it. She is exhausted constantly now and has been having panic attacks. She also had a traumatic birth. She isn’t selling it well, although of course she loves her baby. She looked at me and said “it’s a lot, way more than I thought and if you’re not sure just don’t do it”.

My partner is accepting of the fact I don’t want children as we both love to travel and enjoy a peaceful life when we aren’t working! But I do worry that one day he will change his mind.