looking for support

hey guys, i’m 18F and currently waiting a psychiatrist appointment to get assessed for cyclothymia after a never ending battle with my gp since i was 15. i just have a question i seen hyper sexuality is common in hypomania for most people with cyclothymia or bipolar 2, during my emotional highs i get really hypersexual to the point i send nsfw pics and videos to anyone who asks , when i was 16 i would have sex with a different boy every time however i haven’t had sex in two years as i discovered things like toys. after the episode ends i feel genuinely disgusting and guilty for what i did, i even impulsively left my job last month and started a of but im now in depressive and deleted it. i just hate this feeling of guilt and disgust i get just looking to see if anyone relates so i feel less alone :( there was a rumour going through my town aswwll that i was a wh*re multiple guys have my pictures on their phones and one even posted them publicly that i had to get the police involved. hoping some people can relate.