Part of me loves the lifestyle (weed, drinking, going out, women), but another part of me wants to quit and level up. How do you know which voice to follow?

im a 21 year old who wants to stop smoking weed and drinking but i get anxious after a while if i don’t do it and i believe that women won’t be as interested in me since i already don’t have social media. I’m scared to stop completely because most of my friends do it and i don’t want to feel left out. i have taken a break before it was around a 2 month break last january until i relapsed into the life. i enjoy the intoxication and the woman but a part of me is also telling me to stop. i’ve tried manifestation, new habits such as reading and journaling, affirmations, but they only help temporarily until i am around all the bad stuff again. i want to completely remove the bad thoughts and voice that i have in my head that tells me to fall back into it.