AITAH for confronting my ex after we reconciled and escalated but never forced labels on it.

ive had enough w ur bs, theres no fucking way ur defending and denying urself being an asshole. first u lead me on asked me out and then left for someone who u assumed would love u better or wtv, i didnt ruin that for u yet u blamed me and said "if we never happened me and her wouldve lasted longer" what ab if u never left? what ab if u didnt jump into new flings knowing u wouldnt fully choose them? i try to bring ts up and u say "blame me if that makes u feel better" ask any third person w a decently working conscience and watch them tell u the same thing, try using reddit for other purposes too. u came back and i let u get away w everything and chose to become friends and when things escalated and i was blantantly fucking honest ab choosing u over jacob (also another guy that dumped me because i was too much btw) if u gave me the reassurance and u said "if i could get over amanda (the ex he went back to) then id choose u too" js for u to fucking turn into an asshole and get weirdly distant and mean out of nowhere, id still hyu and check on u and ur excuse to all that was that u were overwhelmed. then boom u have a new fling now that ur over amanda and u told youd choose me yet u kept me as the least appealing option, all ts happened in a span of a week. even if we were friends w no history and i had no ounce of jealousy in me i would still tell u to stop running away from facing ur own fucking problems and finding distractions w new ppl cuz u and ik leading anyone on is fucking wrong. u cannot be a man of god glorifying ur shitty behavior w out even wanting to be better. and what the actual fuck do u mean by "so i just don’t want it to be all intimacy" like the whole time that's all u took me for? u and i both would confide in eachother there was sm more than js sex idk if i was fucking deluded but i genuinely felt comfort at times but thats all u fucking took me for? u saying "u couldve shut me off" is valid provided i complained ab u being horny i only did when i felt like that's the only time youd come to me. quit gaslighting me it isnt working, either own up to being an asshole who refuses to change and respectfully piss off or stop being an asshole.

This was the paragraph I sent him, he called it a slander on his name and threw a vague apology because i "felt disrespected" and asked me if I wanted him to cut his new situationship off and called me out for being jealous when he tries to be open with me. ill be honest i was jealous that he was trying to hit on someone new when thats not what i was expecting given he had told me he'd choose if over his ex amanda after he'd get over her, i was choosing to keep my feelings to myself until he kept asking me what had happened like 8 times after he sent me a ss of him and his new fling flirting. He said he was just testing waters and he wouldnt date her, and if someone liked him they'd have to wait a long time for him and hes just using her as a distraction. She had ghosted him for two days or something and we sexted again and told me "you couldve shut me off right" i didnt want to, as desperate as it sounds i felt like that's the only way i could have him in my life.

He called me jealous like an attack and tried cutting me off because the paragraph pissed him off and he doesnt see a relationship between us when I've made it clear I wouldnt date someone this unstable yet I'd pray and try my best for him to change and I never implied anything about us dating, I constantly asked him why he never chose me, not now not then and his answer was just "im not choosing anyone rn"

AITAH here?