I think shrooms ruined my brain

I know this post is prob gonna piss people off, because so many people believe that there is no such thing as a bad trip or permanent damage isn't possible.

I too love Shrooms (when they work) but back in 2019 I had a bad experience on it. I took 2.5g Golden teacher in the dark, but these were very strong according to reviews. And it wasn't euphoric at all, it was scary, dark, haunting, and made me feel like I was dying for 8+ hours long.

And now, weed no longer works. I just become paranoid on it or have become psychotic. And it beyond sucks. Hell even alcohol messes with me a lot more than it used to. Its like Shrooms completely changed how other drugs work.

I just want to get high but its now very risky as im prone to becoming psychotic and stuff. And nothing works anyways anymore.

Only benzos made me feel slightly better but certainly wasn't a high and that is risky to try bc of withdrawals.

Idk... what even is the point of life if you can't get high. Maybe some people don't mind it but I do. And it beyond sucks...