Welp. A short rant. Accepted It'd probably be better for everyone if I kill myself, only reason I didn't yet is "mom would be sad" (I wish she had a better son, I'm worst possible outcome for her) and not having the gut due to that which just makes me crave finally putting an end to my useless life even more. I'm a waste, a burden, a threat to people around me simply due to the fact that I'm a brainless moron whos form of socializing is by threatening to throw stuff at people. It's a miracle I have a friend who is a real saint compared to me. I'm loud and obnoxious yet hate people who are like I am. Watched a lot of self-help videos and all I've thought is "nope, I don't have it that bad, therefore I don't need help" or "nah I don't deserve a normal life, neither do I deserve any form of love". I've accepted that I should probably get isolated but sadly can't due to still being in school. Soon enough will finish it and instantly sign a military contact (im Russian so this is a ticket straight to hell known as Ukraine which my government started). At least that way my family gets some cash back from what they've spent on me, and I get what I fucking deserve, which is a horribly painfully long death somewhere in a forgotten by God Forrest to a booby trap. I am sadly me, and that me is root of all the problems for people around me. I wish I wasn't born. 

Sorry for posting 

Text on the image says: box for fucking morons