Tired of pretending I’m ok

I was able to do it in the past. Two years ago I stop being able to hide my depression. Now it seems I have regain some of that power and everyone is telling me how good they see me and whatnot. But I’m worse. And I’m tired of pretending. I am able but I don’t know how much my forces will last.

I hate the compliments. Is like calling me a liar and a way to know how alone I am at the same time. I tried asking for help in the past and it only made me lose friends.

Now I shut up. But I’m tired.