I wish I was smarter and Im tired of being dumb

I’m aware that comparison is the thief of joy, but it’s hard not to do it in medical school.

As an Indian med student, I’m surrounded by people who seem unbelievably smart. The kind who read a topic once and remember it forever. They quote lines from textbooks in viva, recall obscure facts during postings, and somehow always seem one step ahead.

I’ve never felt like that person.

For me, it takes multiple readings to really understand something. I revise again and again just to retain what others seem to grasp in one go. Sometimes it feels like I’m putting in twice the effort just to reach the same place. And I dont even reach the same place.

And in a system where everyone was already a topper before entering med school, it’s easy to start feeling like you’re the one who’s lagging behind.

I’m not a genius. I wish I were smarter, I really do. It’s extremely frustrating to say the least.

PS used chatgpt for grammar mistakes