every day i break more of my own rules

i used to limit myself to only posting text and reading the dms without responding to them.

now i post (fully clothed) photos and sext with the people in my dms who interest me.

i even on occasion have sent audio messages or voice called.

i then told myself i would never let them take the conversation to a different app.

now i have burners for my social media and i’ve started entertaining reddit dms.

i told myself no age gaps or cheating.

i now have multiple married men in my inbox.

rules i haven’t broken include no undressed photos or nudes, cover my face, cover my tattoos, don’t use my phone number. i’ve bent most of those.

i am losing self control and it scares me.