I’m legit so fed up w everything

I’m so done with the injustice i’ve had to go through growing up.

I’m always the last person everyone picks in a room full of people.

I have two best friends and they’re a duo.

My mom’s favorite child is my sister. My dad gently talks to my sister but shouts at me every chance i get. It is so frustrating to see u sister get better treatment than u did as a child. Like all the fucking trauma i’ve been through was awful. My parents used to kick me out of the house every time i made a mistake and let me back in after 1 hour. And my sister legit lost 3000 sdollars through fucking roblox and they were mad at her but fine the next day but wait……THEY BLAMED ME FOR IT….ME. They said that she learned ts from me that’s why she’s like this.

I have made so many sacrifices for my studies and have always gotten top grades. I have never dated a single guy my entire life because my parents told me not to. I have never drunk alcohol or vaped and smoked my entire life. I have said no to my friends so many times so i could study for tests. All because my parents ask me to and yet what’s the fucking point? They always have a problem with everything.

I want a mother so much. I want that connection that daughters and mothers have like in gilmore girls or that connection i see with my friends and their mums. This is so unfair. I want my person. I feel so lonely and every time someone gets closer to me emotionally I attack them for some reason Idk why, I just do. But i’ve tried so so so hard to get closer to my mum but she’s always resented me for some reason.

I’m so depressed all the time. genuinely all i ask for is for someone to pick me and only me for who i am.