Day 2/3

Today I thought I’d add a 3-day milestone. It’s been a long time since I’ve managed more than a day clean, simply for lacking motivation or a proper routine, so today my goal is to continue my recovery process and make it to 2 days. Yesterday went well, I journaled, meditated, hit the gym, and went for a walk in the evening to keep myself preoccupied. My mind still feels a little cloudy, and I don’t have as much energy as I’d like, but, surprisingly, I woke up with some morning wood. I think that’s always a great sign of recovery. Something else I noticed yesterday was how socially stunted I felt. It’s like the whole day I felt so socially anxious and unsure of myself around people. Constantly struggling to make eye contact properly, or find the right words to say. That’s a big reason why I’ve decided to quit porn, because of how important socialising meaningfully is, and porn makes you incapable of it.

Anyway, as I said earlier, I’m pushing to continue the process today to beat my rut. I’ve already meditated, and I’ve got plans to hit the gym again and hang out with some friends. Otherwise I need to focus to avoid and distract myself from temptations again in the afternoon/evening. I’m going to make today a good one, and I hope whoever is reading this has a good day too. Cheers.