Christians with bipolar

Hello fellow followers of Christ with bipolar 👋🏽

I struggle with my faith constantly. When I’m hypomanic I feel so connected to our creator and so content and grateful, all that good stuff but when I’m depressed I feel so extremely guilty and evil, I don’t understand the bible or anything about faith in general, I can’t feel his presence at all. My faith changes with my mood states and my mood changes so frequently (within weeks/months). While hypomanic I feel so positive and light. While down I feel like such a toxic believer, I judge a lot (Pharisee spirit) I can’t focus on reading the bible, I can’t pray well. I loose all connection and understanding basically.

How do y’all cope with this?