Day 3 Pt 2: Angry at the world

I spent the entire day mad at the world and trying to make everyone feel what I was feeling.

I don’t think the anger was about cravings, it seemed to come from sadness. I spent the whole day pointing out others mistakes. Maybe because I’m mad that I have to keep up with something I’m holding myself accountable for.

Maybe it’s a chemical imbalance in my brain that’s trying to recalibrate. I was just short and rude to most people I interacted with. I could possibly be gearing up to put myself low enough to where weed doesn’t seem that bad compared to my current emotional state, or just trying to prove to myself that I’m actually better off smoking to regulate my emotions.

Still clean, see y’all tomorrow on day 4.