i wish medicine could fix me

i struggle every single day with doing basic tasks, going to school, and being happy in general. i’ve been on prozac (made me suicidal), lexapro (just never worked), wellbutrin (made me extremely angry all the time), and hydroxyzine, which i have to take 5 of to get a sliver of an effect

i wish something actually worked. its such an abstract idea to me: take this pill for a few months and everything will be ok