I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

I just need to get this out, I’m dying on the inside and putting into words may help. 4 years ago I was diagnosed with generalized epilepsy, and have suffered/continue to suffer from almost a dozen major seizures a month. Not being able to work during this time, being denied disability and any kind of meaningful benefits. On top of seeing the stress my fiancée and children go through, have started killing me inside. Every day is just another struggle to feel normal, at this point I don’t know what to do and just want it to stop. Therapy hasn’t helped, mood stabilizers have helped just barely.

I’m just getting so tired and I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown.