I dont feel like a real person anymore

I went through a manic episode in november after I moved out, Idek exactly how to label whatever it was but I was riddled with anxiety about every little thing, fear about things that don't matter, and my mind was constantly questioning how people perceive me. Every single interaction didn't feel real, I didn't feel comfortable talking to anyone because I was worried anything I would say or do would be seen as dumb, or just strange in general. It sucks to look back on my life a 3-4 years ago, where yes I still had my quirks but I had confidence, and I was myself.

From November-February my behavior to the people in my life was concerning, I was losing all my memory, so anxious and caught up in my head and detached from reality that I couldnt concentrate or remember anything, people would speak to me and i would try so hard to listen but i couldnt really hear what they were saying. My anxious energy was so strong I knew everyone around me could feel it, and thats when it really hit me. I broke down and took myself to the ER because I got so concerned. I could tell people were babying me, and that realization of wow I really do have a mental illness and its now obviously visible to other people was one of the worst feelings I have ever felt. These past few months has by far been the hardest time in my life.

I pushed through, and I told myself living the way I was was not okay. Now I am going on walks almost everyday, eating at least twice a day, got on anxiety meds, and actually prioritizing sleep.

Does anyone have any advice for finding yourself again? Im exhausted of feeling like an empty person, a robot, and numb. One of my biggest fears is that other people think I have no personality, but the stigma with bipolar is so huge, theres no point in trying to explain to people. Right now I am definitely better than I was before all the healthy habits im currently implementing, but im waiting for happiness to return...I just want to be the real me again.