My worst fear happening to me didn’t help, it made it 10x worse

After it happened I stopped functioning as a person, its no longer in my head, I can’t tell myself that anymore. All the progress I had turmoiled and my compulsions are 10x worse. I can’t own any social media without it turning into a compulsion (yes, including Reddit). I’m afraid to go places because it takes me away from my compulsions. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to keep going. I just want it to stop.