Losing the will to live.

This might be extremely emotionally overwhelming for anyone to read, you may skip it if you want.

I am a dropper that gave NEET last year in may, CUET after that and i couldnt get a seat in either. In cuet i got a random DU college and i had been really good in academics my whole life, so my parents wouldnt allow me to join ese hi koi bhi college. So we decided to take a drop. But now we were taking a drop in the situation where my dad wanted me to go for BA HONS in DU’s top colleges. So accordingly i started studying arts subjects to appear for cuet and that happened. Got to know about UCEED just 5 months before the exam and decided to pour into that because i felt as if i was capable enough for something greater than a random BA degree. Then, today is the day i will open my UCEED results, and im bound to greet with failure as im fully aware of the fact that nothing would be able to suffice the ache that is about to come over me. I messed up CUET too because i missed the correction window and forgot to opt for GENERAL TEST. I messed up my chances at DTU via CUET because i didnt take eng+gat combination for a BBA. I messed up my chances at DU’s top colleges because i didnt take the same subjects that i took in class 12 to give board exams, now i cannot go to DTU, cannot go to DU, messed up every possible admission process there was. I have no idea what to pursue, call me wasted potential if you will. I have officially lost the will to live. Thankyou for reading.