Stillbirth loss

I lost my baby girl in November at 35 weeks. I was 19 years old and never imagined the amount of grief I’ve experienced since then. It truly feels like a struggle to get out of bed each and every day. I feel so filled with anger and sadness that I had to lose my girl. The hospital was somewhat of a hazy experience and I couldn’t even get myself together enough to hold her. Having this happen at such a young age makes it feel like I have nobody to talk to and I’ve truly never felt so alone in my life. For some reason I feel ashamed of what happened. I feel like it’s my fault and that I did something wrong. I would do anything to have just one day with her to love on her and give her the world. Any advice on helpful ways to remember her would be greatly appreciated.❤️