Workplace

I am barista and I struggle sometimes in the workplace, some of my co workers show signs of being neurodivergent and are loud sometimes and most of them are friends so they hangout outside of work. I’m more quiet and reserved because most of the time I have nothing to say or I feel awkward joining the conversation. Or I get passionate about things and or can’t get my words out. But it’s bad because I also get jealous I feel like can’t always connect. Or because I feel like I’m awkwardly standing around. There is a lot of work gossip that get’s annoying, so I vent alot when I come home. Since I vent a lot when I come home it makes me question if I am neurodivergent because I should be more understanding of signs of neurodivergence that is shown.