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Tbh, life is going pretty well. Just got into grad school, got great friends, family is healthy, etc. I'm working towards my dreams, and they look pretty bright. Still cut myself tho?? Like, what's up with that? Unfortunately, no matter how well things are going, I still manage to find stuff to complain about lol. I'm a super particular person, and my roommates are NOT. So if I want the dishes done, or the floors clean, or chairs to be in place, I gotta do it all myself. So like I said, life is pretty good. But sometimes, between me randomly feeling sad and that I deserve to die or whatever who cares, and the constant struggle I have trying to make things perfect, I crack.... Just cut myself againnnnn uuuuuggggghhhhhh. Not bad, not life threatening, nothing requiring stitches, but it's still annoying. I just wish that I felt the way normal people feel. I wish I could care less, but I have yet to be able to do that.... But even though I may never be free of this baloney, still tryna look on the bright side. Like I said, things are looking up for me. Anyone else ever cut because things are out of place? I'm genuinely curious if that's something that gets to other people like it gets to me. Regardless, stay safe y'all. If u read, I hope u get chocolate tomorrow. It's Friday after all. Treat your self!