I'm so lost and yet I'm so done.

Hi, I'm new to reddit as of posting but I've been a lurker for a while.

To put it all out there, I'm (17, NB) dealing with some home issues and some persoanl stuff and I don't really know where I would post something like this (I don't have enough karma yet but I'm not asking for anything on that.)

To lay it all out there, I'm currently living at one of my moms friends place because shes been locked away. I'm still catching up on reddit rules and trying to familiarize myself with what I can so details will be short. I think for right now I just want a listening ear, but advice on how to go about this would be really nice.

So for what I've started with is that I'm living with my moms friend and staying in one of the spare rooms they have because my original home is in shambles and isn't really livable right now, Though my grandmother and sibling are currently staying there. Anyways, I recently applied somewhere and I'm waiting for them to get back to me since I've been out of work for a little while now and have been job searching like a mad man. Well, My GM, who is old and can't do things for himself, my GM has a car and I'm getting my permit soon, Sibling is 2 years older than me and doesn't and won't get his permit or driver's license. I have three older non-blood siblings, two out of the pictures right now but one, My oldest step-sister, keeps on popping back in when its either convenient for her or when she can get something from my GM or sibling.

I'm supposed to be going to my classes so I can finish high-school. The people I'm staying with sadly aren't able to give reliable transportation that I need. Well my older step-sister is using my grandmothers car to take my GM and Sibling where they need or want to be. She has her own car but that's another story, Anyways I'm taking my permit test soon and if I passed I was supposed to take my GM's car to and from classes and work with a driver, but my sibling said I'm not going to get the car until I get my license (I have a 30 day wait period if I pass my permit test.) And it's really messed me up even more because I've been out of school for so long and really need to be getting to class.

They live about 30ish miles from me, and it takes them about a good 20-40 minutes to get where I am if they really tried. My step-sister has her car, I don't know what's exactly wrong with it but it can still get her from point A to point B just fine. We're also trying to sell the home that they are staying in (my childhood home) for more then 50k so we can buy my grandmother a house.

There's so much going on and all I want to do is cry, I can't do online schooling because the program I'm doing doesn't have that option anymore and there's no public transportation in my town where I live. My step-sister and sibling keep making fun of my situation and it really hurts because this is all they do when something like this happens to me (needing to couch surf so I can try and get to my classes because I legally have to.) I've been laid up in this room, no where to go and nothing to do about this. My GM can't do anything and my siblings keep saying my older sister can drive at 7am in the mornings to pick me up and drop me off to class, then she can turn around, head home and then pick me up around 12 and drop me off to where I'm staying for four days a week. That or I could head back to my childhood home, but there's no room because my old room is the only functioning one and they are both using it.

I feel like everything is crumbling and I'm stuck in a hole and can't get out, I feel like a fool on so many levels and keep worrying that I'm not going to make it very far in life or at all.

I'm sorry, I'm not trying to get pity or make anyone feel bad or go against any rules with this, I'm just scared, I don't know how to proceed with any of this, and there's so much more going on then just this. It's late, I'm tired, I've been crying for 2 weeks straight because I just want some sort of help or advice, or even someone to talk to and I don't know where to look or turn.