TW: depression, mental health, idk. || Messy eating, stress, depression and planning an actual fast.

Long story short: despite my best efforts, || my abusive parents and my depression weighed (!) heavily on my eating habits in the last 4 months. I haven't gained much, but || I'm constantly bloated, || especially because I eat poorly and drink a lot (which was never a problem until now) and || even when I try to be healthy my body responds the wrong way - always, always, always bloated since last December.

I tried IF, nothing works.

I tried to lower my cortisol with supplements, useless.

|| Now, since according to my psychiatrist I need to stay away from my parents and, unfortunately, also everything and everyone I care about, I'll have to spend a few days alone in a hotel or something. So || I was planning to fast from tonight until Monday evening, hoping my stomach will start feeling better. Just magnesium and potassium, as much water as possible and coffee or tea. || Probably I'll be spending all my time in bed since I'll be far away from literally anything and I don't have any friends except the one who's leaving today for work (and he doesn't have a car)... ||

At least something has to get better, right?

...

I'm so tired.

So, yeah. I just needed some accountability.