I cannot get the feeling like there is no God

I grew up in an atheistic family, my dad doesnt support it. Im 15 years old now and few months ago I decided that I want to believe in God. Ive read the Bible, prayed, imagined, hoped and still nothing. Many people have reccomended me to read the gospels, so I did, but nothing has changed. Even when I do read the gospels, its hard for me to believe that Jesus did "magical" things. I really try to believe in God, i ask him to help me with my faith in my prayers, but its still the same. I dont know what Im doing wrong, it seems like no matter how much I read the Bible, it just doesnt get better, does someone have any ideas or advices that could help me? But please, dont reccomend to read something in the Bible, ive tried thag many times and still nothing.