My Mother

My mother is always angry. Whenever I am happy or excited for something, she never matches my energy. She always makes me feel bad for being happy or excited.

She’s old, 70 years old. Lives with my wife and I and she’s always been like this.

Shes just a miserable person. Unless she’s the one creating the happiness. Then she’s so happy it’s more like a caricature of what a happy person is.

I watch her with interact my son and how dismissive she is when he asks to play. But she will interrupt him when he’s quietly sitting and rile him up and make these extravagant games. Where she acts overly animated.

Reminds me of when she woke me up at 4am one day to go to Denny’s for breakfast but would yell at me if I asked for McDonald’s for dinner.

She’s never been happy or nice unless she’s orchestrating it. Shes also never had a job. Like a real one. Her body was always sore. Too store to stand at Walmart but not sore enough to find make busy work for 8 hours in the yard. “It’s because standing hurts more” - but you said moving hurts more yesterday?

She pays no bills, but wasn’t sole control over the entire house. New puppy? You have to run it by her or she’s a terror and mean person. Going to the in-laws? She has to get in the way as we are packing stuff together.

I’m tired.