how to enjoy this?

i’ve posted here a few times before, one of them being my extreme depression about being pregnant and having to be a mom when i never wanted to. this was at 9 weeks.

i’m now 11 weeks, and while i still loathe everything about this, i’m just accepting that this is my fate now. how do i enjoy being pregnant and becoming a mother? how do i come around to being happy instead of depressed about it? my boyfriend is sad every time i talk about how much i don’t want to be a mother, regret my decisions, etc. and im sure my parents have gotten the picture as well. i’m just sucking it up now.

for people who were fence sitters/ didnt want to be pregnant but stuck it out, how did you come around to it? advice would be appreciated.