Wife finally cheated

Wife and I (both 33) got into this about a year ago and it started as mfm, then just me watching her with other men. As we progressed I turned into a cuck. Ive always been into the thought of her cheating, and it really turned me on. We define cheating as anything we both aren’t aware of or consent to. Although I let her fuck whatever man she wants however she wants to do it, our agreement was I would be in the know. I never told her that I’m kind of into the thought of her cheating.

I gave her a 12 pack of condoms about a month ago and basically said, just in case you need these I want you to have them. This morning I noticed 2 of them are gone. I’m so turned on and curious but know there’s nothing I can do about it but wonder. I love there’s little signs I can discover, like 2 condoms missing.