Do you still have 'abusers' in your life, and are they causing discomfort

It's difficult to find the words to describe in a panic kind of mode, for me it's like asthma, I've woken up every night unable to breathe searching high and low for my rescue inhaler, sometimes they were near empty, and there's the slightest possibility someone was trading me for their near empty canister and using it to cool meth amphetamine when washing it to make a pure substance look foggy, or like ice. I'm homeless, and I couldn't be rid of my problems any other way. I'm old and waiting for ssdi, it was approved 3 months ago. I wonder if it will be sufficient to find a home and a car or home fix my car. I have doubts and the only evidence I have of abuse is a x-ray of my spine, but nobody will come out and say they made my spine a hunchback when I was 3 feet tall . Nor will they say anything about leaving guns lying around for accidents to have happened, nor will they explain the drug encounters. Not without blaming me, I think I was kidnapped, no parent would injure their children as they had me with the wealth that they had.