Why does my ex/father of my unborn child hate me so much??!

Okay, so my ex broke up with me back in January when I was 6 months pregnant. He claimed it was because I did not trust him because I called him out on not answering his phone and following porn pages on Twitter. I tried everything in my power to work things out with him, but he became cold and dismissive and told me to not contact him unless it’s about our baby.

I have a gut feeling that he used me “not trusting him” as an excuse to leave because I believe he was dealing with another girl behind my back. Anyways, the past couple of months I poured my heart out letting him know how hurt I was and if there was anything I can do to make things right. Sometimes he’ll straight up ignore me and other times he’ll call me hurtful names and tell me to leave him alone.

Lately, I’ve been keeping things kid related, but he’ll still try to verbally attack me. The last time I spoke to him was Tuesday encouraging him to buy his own car seat or stroller. He straight up said “I’ll get my own s**t, stop texting me b***h. After that he followed up and said “my new gf will be a better mom to our daughter than you would ever be”. I was so angry and upset that I fired back at him. He responded by calling me bitter. I then told him that he wasted the most sensitive and important months of my life being an a**hole to me. After I told him that, he began to blow my phone up calling me and of course I refused to answer.

I’m now at a space where I feel defeated. Our baby shower is coming up in a couple of weeks and I know he wants to attend and help me set up, but I just can’t stomach the idea of reaching out to him about it. He also demanded to be in the delivery room while I give birth, but even thinking about him being there makes me angry. I don’t understand his disrespect. I want him to be a father to our daughter, but the way he acts towards me makes me think it’s not a good idea. At least right now.