Advice

My husband and I have been dating for 5 years and recently got married before we moved to a new place. we are only 23, but felt pressured for us to have the label “married” after all this time and moving in together. In the beginning of the relationship we were intimate often and then I didn’t feel so comfortable doing it with him until we got married. fast forward today, it’s been about 2 months married and I noticed our intimacy is not at the level it was or I thought it would’ve since we are married now. I noticed he wasn't initiating it with me and wanted to bring it up, but didn’t get the chance until I caught him in the shower looking at other girls on his phone. this sparked a lot arguing and ‼️TW‼️ he opened up about being sexually abused from ages 9-11, an that essentially trigged his awakening to porn and lust from a young age. I’m looking for more insight on how a sexually abusive past can trigger this behavior and just some advice on where to go from here. I want to disappear and not have to deal with something like this. I understand how his addicted was triggered but I don’t why he would rather do it with himself to random girls instead of me….

note- when dating I knew he was watching it bc we obviously stopped being intimate together and I brought it up that it bothered me but eventually dropped it because I firgured when we started doing it again, it would stop that…. I guess not