when did you realise you made a wrong patner choice?.

So a few days ago, i told my "girlfriend" i kissed another girl out of my own guilt and consciousness and she started gaslighting me and what not of which i was okay with that since i was wrong

later on i went through my "girlfreinds" phone whil le she was asleep since she did the same and snitched on me and my friends conversation to his girlfriend .

I found out she had gone to a mbabaz last year dec of which its not true through a video she lied she had taken her friend to meet him but watu si wajinga😂.. I brought that issue and we had a big fight since i forced her to admit what she had done and she told me alidarwa and what not....

I came to the realisation, that we did not share the same vision, since she told.me i couldn't provide for her, and i she couldn't for herself also which is true i couldn't. But i can hold my own.

I tried talking to her about communication, honesty , our future investments, but i got an ick. like i was talking to deaf ears that's why i chose to save myself first while we are still together. I have deleted every pic of hers and me, everything from when we started dating. I assume this is a new beginning for me.

Like is this how married people feel? when you don't correlate with your spouse?

As they always say "From now on i've changed😂" which is never true...I have made my plans to level up my life..

I have just gotten a new shave for the new castings i feel good , like a new me.😂

I have saved up money to vacate from my folks place to set up my new place.

I'm studying a new skill soon i'll be able to land a job with the Help of God.

The way i used to text her , and call hapo nime jitoaa akinitakaaa anitafute sasa.

I'm not going to share my plans with her, kila mtu ajipangeee kivyakee.

those who will tell me to leave , i just can't leave without a proper casting in place.