update (cw: self harm) things escalated and i’m scared

hi everyone i wanted to give an update on my post (https://www.reddit.com/r/ActualLesbiansOver25/s/ykFnZEedIG). thank you to everyone who commented, it helped me see things from different perspectives  ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ 

today i asked to meet with her. i planned to tell her that i wanted to stop talking and that i didn’t feel comfortable continuing the relationship

when i brought up the meme and explained that it made me uncomfortable, she didn’t take it well. she kept apologizing and said it was just a meme she saw on tiktok and thought was funny. she admitted she’s mainly into younger women like me and said she didn’t want me to leave her

when i told her i wanted to end things, she started begging me not to go. then she said that when she got home she would harm herself and that it would be my fault if she ended up hospitalized. she also said she would consider killing herself because of me and that i should rethink ending things and come check on her

i’m really scared 😓 i care about people deeply and the thought that someone is hurting themselves because of me is making me feel horrible

edit: i feel like maybe i made a mistake by meeting her in the first place. maybe i should have just blocked her everywhere. i’m really sorry if that sounds stupid, i just didn’t expect things to escalate like this because she’s always been very caring toward me before. part of why i wanted to meet and explain things in person is because she knows where i live and i was scared that things could get bad if i just suddenly blocked her without saying anything. i’m sorry to everyone if it seems like i handled this badly