I fell in love even though I was about to marry someone else

There's a whole lore but I'll keep it short. I was with someone for over 10 years but was lied to. I believe there was cheating but he denies it. We got back together and were supposed to get married. Anyway, I joined a job and I fell in love with a guy who doesn't even approach me. I feel so deeply for this guy. He's everything I want. His name is Aakash. I wish he'd ask me out once but we got off on the wrong foot. I just want to be under him. He's such a cutie. He's so kind and warm that I just want to curl up in his lap like a cat and fall asleep I If I don't date him it feels like I'll be forever regretful. I've never asked a guy out so idk how to handle this crush. I did ask him out to lunch but he didn't get the hint. I'm afraid he's everything my fiance isn't. Maybe he already has a gf but I'm so in love it hurts 😭 i want him to know how I love him but rn this post is good I tell him