Losing weight is a WAR

Losing weight w PCOS is literally like being on a constant war with my body.

I feel so defeated, for past 7 months, i’m doing everything textbook- low carb + high protein + supplements acc to blood work+ strength training + 10k steps + incline walk YET my weight is complete yoyo.

My heartbroke & i skipped the gym for a week, weighed myself today, and i’m at my heaviest- i’m shattered.

I know it could be my muscle or something but i certainly feel fat too. Seeing 81kg on scale after starting out at 74kg has incredibly broken me! In between i did see 71kg on scale but only because i starved myself to 900 cals a day and i cannot continue doing that.

My self esteem has hit rock bottom. My money + time + effort everything is flushed. Plus still no natural period.

I’m single 26 rn, i fear it’ll be incredibly difficult for me to get pregnant in future which will likely take emotional toll on my life w my partner. I’ve been so unlucky in love is where this fear comes from. I’m sorry if I sound like a loser

This hirsutism is driving me nuts.

Doc just says “lose weight” but HOW DO I DO ITTTFABANSN???? THIS BELLY FAT JUST WON’T BUDGE!!!!

Pls forgive any grammatical error, i’m raging rn. Thankyou for reading :)