21 Years old and constantly feeling alone

I guess i just want to get it of my chest bc i can do it anonymous on here.

I feel like my whole life i have been alone and no one really cared about me.

New people never want to really get to know me and even when they want the vibe is always off,

like something seems to be wrong with me since i was born and i dont really fit anywhere.

I havent dated for years bc no one really shows intetrest in me and I know that its bc of the way I am.

Sometimes I ask myself if this is Gods punishment for turning my back on him but i dont really believe in all that mystical stuff.